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Voter's ID
Monday Feb 18, 2008

Two months have passed since my stolen wallet. But besides the money (P4K), I still regret the loss of my voter's ID. Granted that it's my worst "mugshot", but still: Not every voter in the Philippines could have it even if they wanted to.

It's a mystery that some get it while others don't. And no one knows what agency to go to to get one.

Do you?


Matalino o Masaya?

Tuesday Feb 19, 2008

"Anong gusto mo maging, matalino o masaya?" G~ blurted out of nowhere.

"Masaya," I replied, not a moment after.

"Talaga? Kahit tanga ka?" said A~ just as fast.

My mind reeled, and after a significant pause I said, "Well, kung masaya ka, di mo rin siguro alam na tanga ka. Kung hindi, eh di hindi ka na masaya nun."

I don't know about the other two, but I felt the impact of my own words right after I said them. It's a pity that when I look at the most logical -- and I mean people with sound minds and great character -- some of them tend to feel unhappy and alienated. While the idiots who just don't analyze the quality of their reasoning tend to be happy existing as badly as they do.

I don't want to generalize. And I don't want to be negative. But there's something in here: that sometimes a great mind can even be a barrier to happiness.


Workplace Dilemma

Wednesday Feb 20, 2008

"Gusto mo ba mag-work sa ?" said J~.

"Hindi," I blurted. "Ah, hindi," I countered. "Ewan ko. Malay mo."

Oh no. I'm in deep shit. It seems that deep inside I do not want to apply at one of the highest-paying IT company in the country. (And I'm not saying that they'd want to take me even if I did apply.) I have some inside info on how it might be like to work there, and it's good in many ways. But still, something inside me says I don't want to apply. (I have my thoughts on why I feel this way, but I'm not sure of it. It's like the reasoning after the fact of the feeling.)


Define, A Handy Google Feature

Thursday Feb 21, 2008

Did you know you could do this with google: "define: ". Handy, isn't it? Now I don't always have to go to the slow-loading Dictionary.com. (I think their ads are at fault with that.)


ClawDaddy Crab House Buffet at Shang
Friday Feb 22, 2008

I was really looking forward to ClawDaddy again. We had a nice buffet, with soup, salad, roast pork, and of course, a load of crab (pun intended). They don't tell you this, but they vary the buffet. Before, we had barbecued pork instead of roast. There was also pasta, but now we have spiced rice, beans, creamy corn or spinach. Previously, the crab was cooked in oil and garlic; now they were boiled with corn and potatoes. They also have deserts and some fruit like a pineapple or a watermelon maybe. Like all buffets, it was a feast. For the unrestrained food lover, ClawDaddy's buffet is something that's worth going for. Price: ~P750 each for the buffet and drinks.


Accepting Scratch Papers for Donation
Saturday Feb 23, 2008
I like printing articles from the web. So to my friends who have some spare scratch papers, hey, your garbage is exactly my treasure.


Book Review: Dark Nights of the Soul
Sunday Feb 24, 2008

Dark Nights of the Soul
by Thomas Moore

Dark Nights of the Soul is a wordy book. I had not read it as much as skimmed my way through it. Against his Care of the Soul, there were fewer metaphors and symbolisms that grabbed me, so I had very few a-ha moments while reading it. There were examples of people who have gone through a dark night, but I still didn't connect with them -- as if Moore was only speaking of generalities. The book feels more like a long essay, containing feelings rather than advice for self-help to his readers.

There are some gems, though. The chapters on Life's Ironies and on Creativity were a good read. And if only for these two parts of the book, then I have to say that the book is a keeper in my personal library.

Here's a small preview of what you will find:

"What is needed is not pretense but complexity. You don't hide your suffering, you weave it tightly into the whole fabric of your life and personality."

"You finally discover that it is not good to spend your life trying to be good and aligning yourself with virtuous people of the world. It might be better to avoid that divided self altogether and instead simply live with compassion for yourself and others. You are not perfect and you never will be."

"And so we are left with a great battle, not between good and evil, but between really living and just pretending."

Nice eh? :)

Sudden Feelings of Listlessness

Doing Weekly Posts
Monday Feb 11, 2008

Filler post: I'm doing weekly posts. I write at least one paragraph a day, give myself some time to realize grammatical errors, and then have all seven of them posted at the same time. I wonder how long I can keep this up. I guess not for long. :P



Cocorama at Shang
Tuesday Feb 12, 2008

Lunch was at Cocorama, Shangri-la mall, Mandaluyong. We ordered porkchop, bento, and chicken alfredo. Their food was ok. It's a resto you can go to if you're tired of the usual. And they have large servings. The iced tea tastes like real tea (as opposed to the iced teas in fast foods here), which I like. The pancake that came with the bento was delicious. And if there's something I'd look forward to next time, it will be a taste of their choco pancake. Price: P300-P500 per person.



Studied Like Crazy
Wednesday Feb 13, 2008



Four-day Workweek?
Thursday Feb 14, 2008

I'm starting to think that I'm more efficient if I work only four work days in a week. What are the consequences of that thought? I'd rather not think for now.



Brother's Van
Friday Feb 15, 2008



I thought we weren't gonna make it. But we did. My parents boasted that this second-hand van can climb the steep road that we regularly take. Not only that, it really saves on gasoline. So ok, ok, I'm convinced. I could use this van for practice when I take driving lessons this March.



Studied Like Crazy
Saturday Feb 16, 2008



Sudden Feelings of Listlessness
Sunday Feb 17, 2008

Does this ever happen to you: You've made plans, so in your head you've figured everything's gonna be alright, then a day after that you suddenly feel lost again, for no apparent reason. When this happens, I grab my books and scan for anything I might do to feel... something else. They're like my prozac or something, haha.

Uncaring, Coños, Dogs, Religion, Java, Balloons, and the Wisdom of Crowds

Remind Me Not to Care
Monday Feb 4, 2008

In my Yahoo Messenger status, I wrote, "my ny resolution: be irresponsible >:)". Why? Because I am too approachable and helpful at work. I volunteer too much information and, with it, my precious time. People tend to ask help too often, and then I'd feel abused. So now I answer questions briefly. The way I speak and my body language says, "Do not ask me if you can figure it out yourself." I don't know what this will do to my (supposedly) pleasant personality, but I'm feeling a lot better.

Aside: an officemate's remark on that YM status: "sex with a stranger." *LOL*




Earth Swallow Me Na
Tuesday Feb 5, 2008

"Earth swallow me na." The guys at work used this expression to tease a coño (suppossedly, but she's not. Long story). It brought the house down, haha.

In my opinion, the Filipino use of the term coño does not have anything to do with being rich or well-to-do, although no one will call you coño if you're like gusgusin. (Did you catch that one?) It's in the way the language is used and abused. Coños over-use "pa" and "na" after English statements: "Wait for me na" or "I'm gonna eat pa". And if this isn't enough bastardization of the language, they also like to mix-and-match English and Filipino words that result in, hmmm, quite creative usage. A girl guiding her dad as he parks the car says, "Atras pa, atras...Stop! Atras the other way."

Worst of all, does it have to sound (pa)cute? I know Americans don't speak that way, and neither do ordinary Filipinos. I just hate it. It makes me want to yell, "Umayos ka!"

I'd rather that people speak to me in solid English or Filipino sentences. Or if in Taglish, just not with that ornery tone these people use.

I know: live and let be. But I (stubbornly) just don't like it. It's a pet peeve. And I'm entitled to have one.




Saved a Dog's Life
Wednesday Feb 6, 2008

Two of my dogs attacked a small, white, fluffy dog. Both of their toothy mandibles were gnawing the shrieking animal. I splashed water, motioned grievous threats with my hard slippers, and gave stout reprimands until the hapless dog was able to limp away.




Think for Yourself
Thursday Feb 7, 2008

Religions should teach people to think for themselves...

But the better thing to do is to think for yourself no matter what other people or institution say. Don't try change your religion...they change when less and less people like them.

So easy to say.




I Admit, I'm Not Thinking Clearly
Friday Feb 8, 2008

I know that not getting a job first is stupid. But I want, want, want that Java certification. Getting a job first will only take that focus away from me. Some people say that getting certified doesn't matter. But I want, want, want that Java certification. I just have to have it.

And I don't have to justify why, because it's certain that every reason can be countered. I just want it. Want, want, want it.




Balloon Festival
Saturday Feb 9, 2008

The Weekend of Everything That Flies didn't get off the ground this morning as strong winds prevented the organizers from blowing the balloons.

I just got a whiff of how cool it could have been. I'm definitely going back next year.




Halfway into The Wisdom of Crowds
Sunday Feb 9, 2008

I was able to buy a hardbound copy of The Wisdom of Crowds yesterday at half the price. Today, I got to read half of it, so I can't say much yet. So far, it was as interesting as I expected it to be.